I am done with the semester :) and as an added bonus I have passed all my classes, event the tedious online ones. I closed on an apartment and got a student teaching placement. The end is within sight :) I am so content with where I am currently that I want to never leave. With the stress of the semester over and student teaching on its way, I am content to sit here at the Coffee Bean forever and just write. I am not in a relationship (except for the one with my turkey, swiss and artichoke sandwich), I am on my way to my own apartment, I own a gorgeous dog whom I love and Christmas is in 5 days. I am in a very good place. It is amazing to me that just 3 short days ago I was having a meltdown because of the tremendous amount of work that I needed to get done and today I am relaxing and blogging. My life runs on deadlines and cutoffs. The pressure builds and builds and builds until the next deadline when it all comes to a head and all at once is relieved.
This semester was undoubtably the most stressful yet, most likely due to the 24 credits I was juggling. Several romantic intrigues also caused my emotions to roll up and down in sessions of extreme happiness and depression. The thing about emotions, you see, is that most often we follow our "heart" or "gut" not thinking about the inevitable fact that we will get hurt in the end. We simply follow what will make us happy in the moment and no matter how aware of the repercussions we are, we still go for this thing. I started "seeing" this guy who I knew was bad in character, but this did not matter because I was infatuated. Lust and infatuation can, and does, cause many of the problems we experience and cause for ourselves and those around us.
Well anyway, I will be blogging a lot more now, due to the excess of down time. I might even load a couple pages from the story I am writing ;)
