nope

I did not get the job... this is ok though. I will survive, I am sure. Today I really want to cuddle with someone in front of the tv watching star wars or something. Is this strange? nope, not for me! but instead I am sitting in my room, alone, writing in here and listening to bad rap music. I discovered rap this week, it is nice I suppose. Today was homecoming and I rode inside of a float. It was enjoyable and I was with friends. I then had salad for dinner. At the football game I was talking to a friend that has since graduated. She was asking me about classes and such and, in turn, I asked about her job searches. She asked me a question, I can't remember what, and I was having a hard time separating the answer I wanted to give her from the other stuff in my head so it took me a couple seconds and she asked if I was ok. I answered that, yes, I was but I was just having a foggy day and she replied "Abby, you are always like that" She then laughed and repeated the question which I spewed an appropriate answer to. This then preoccupied my thoughts for the remainder of the day. If she had noticed this "scattered" quality about me, does everyone notice it? Is this why I can't find a guy to have a relationship with? Am I just too scattered? You might say "well just be more focused" but it is not this simple, it is VERY difficult for me to think about one thing at a time. I think this is why I don't dream at night, my brain doesn't slow down enough. Dreaming is when your brain is only focused on that one thing, has nothing else to do, that is why dreams feel so real. My brain doesn't do that. I remember 2 dreams I have had and I was 12 years old for both. Weird? yes, it is.

waiting...

So today I am waiting to hear if I got a promotion or not. Yes thats right, a promotion! I am an RA (resident assistant) currently, but recently there came the need for a replacement Assistant Residence Hall Coordinator (ARHC) for one of the dorms. The current coordinators and assistant coordinators got together and compiled a list of qualified senior ra's to fill the space and my name, among 4 others, was chosen! This makes me very happy to know that I am doing a good enough job to be noticed! I had an interview yesterday and we are suppose to know by this evening who got the job. I am sitting on edge because I really want the job and I feel I could fill the position well. I love being a leader so I feel that this job will fit me. There are others that got interview though and might also get the job, they also would do a splendid job! But for now I will pray and update later on the results.

classes... an inevitable evil

So classes are in full swing, and with 24 credits to keep up with it is definitely turning out to be interesting. I'm kinda brain dead right now but here are some writings from earlier this week.

President Brown walked through the hall, past his students with his head held high. His grey suit matched perfectly to his greying hair, the only spark of color being a tartan tie hanging from his large neck. In his left hand he grasped a tartan gift bag with red tissue paper bursting out of it, off to some important person, no doubt.

His face resembled one of an anime character, with a severely angled face and large eyes. His small mouth revealed perfect large teeth and his nose could barley be seen when viewed in profile. He sat leaning on the table with his elbow, sideways in his chair, using the back to rest his knee on. His other leg was coiled underneath him. His high cheekbone rested on his fist of the arm braced on the table as he glanced about in total relaxation. To finalize his look he sported a small dark go-tee and a ski hat, which with his dark tousled hair, enclosed his face in a black frame. Despite all these characteristics though, it was his large, burly, dark eyebrows that completed his hyper anime look. Never before had I seen such active eyebrows. I liked his face I decided, after much musing and contemplation, it was something I would like to photograph some day.